A Passing Grade

The past couple of weeks have been quite chaotic with the pharmacy evaluation looming just ahead. Not that anything major would happen were we to fail the test, but the desire to always succeed is deeply embedded in me. I don't like settling for anything less than perfection, or as close as I can get to it. I don't accept failure well. Just don't have the stomach for it.

So with today being the day of the evaluation, I felt overwhelmingly nauseated with anxiety and fear. As far as pharmacy is concerned, I've always felt a lot of pressure to be the best. To stand out. To excel where others don't or can't. I feel like a lot of people rely on me, so I'm always under pressure. I can't be anything less than perfect because if I am, I'll disappoint myself and the people I'm around. It's a heavy burden that I've placed on myself.

But this story ends happily. After being evaluated for an hour and a half, I received the news that we had indeed passed. Barely, mind you. We needed at least a ninety and we received a ninety-one. But who cares! It's still a passing score! And I am so relieved! And because we passed our evaluation, our company is rewarding us with a free lunch whenever we choose to collect. A very good ending to a very nauseating day.